Avatar, Eywa, and Ayahuasca HEALED MY SOULl.

[eywa_devotee]

Realizing that my Avatar movie addiction was financially unhealthy, I decided it was time to ride the Toruk. Eywa was trying to tell me something, but all the eye-candy, special effects, and cliche's and other occluding factors in the movie were obscuring her message. She told me during the last viewing, that the next time I watch the movie, i was to see her. I had doubts about it but decided that "Sometimes your whole life boils down to a single insane move." Just before seeing it, i took the Ayahuasca spirit into myself so that i could freely look into the eye of Eywa without the glasses on.

WARNING MAJOR SPOILERS ARE IN THIS! If you want to see the movie, read this later!

If you believe that Eywa is purely fictional creation solely for the Avatar movie, you may want to listen to "drums" song here.

ayahuasca songs | Heart of the Initiate

I let myself merge with Eywa's consciousness on the 15th time seeing Avatar.

If you want to skip to the core experience parts, you can start on part 2 or 3

Keeping her in mind at all times, I felt the Aya spirit begin removing the filters from my mind as the movie started. Almost on cue when Jake entered his avatar, I felt her presence all around me. She was with me but not within me. I was there in the theater and all the scenes were playing like a movie, but it was with an indescribable depth and realism here-to-for inexperienced. I was the Palulakan running through the forest after my meal fueled by primal hunger, than was Jake running for his life, yet not afraid to die. I then was Neyteri who had a deep distrust of these beings, and a desire to kill it, but felt her inside as Eywa told her that she wants to know more about this strange new being living in the world. I was even the wolves who wanted Jake as their meal, yet Jake as well, i experienced his wonder at the acrobatic agility of Neyteri and at the bio-luminescent world that was masked by the fire he lit. I simultaneously experienced Neyteri and her deep reverence for nature yet her anger toward Jake. I experienced the gentle probing of the atolkirina and sensed their actual purpose is very similar to that of a messenger white blood cells. I couldn't resist playing with them though, it was fun.

I became one with Tsu-tey, the other warriors, and then the Na'vi, one at at time but then all at once! i saw Eytukan, and felt he was very wise, and was once a very powerful warrior, yet tempered by age. He has seen it all, been there done it! When i saw Mo'at, I too saw what she saw in Jake, something that you cannot see in the movie even with the "3D IMAX experience": He was not like the others! He had the potential to see through our eyes and understand us.

(at this point i felt like a disembodied head, the Na'vi, looking closely at them- all the details seeing some curious, some afraid, some angry and they were looking at ME!)

Then Mo'at turned to me! I was more than a little surprised by this, as this wasn't in the movie and said: Who are you, why have you come to our world!? Her face was not afraid, but full of curiosity and healthy suspicion. I looked at her, and the movie was playing something else in the background and she was still there! She asked again "WHY ARE YOU HERE?!" I told Mo'at that "I have come to see Eywa." and she told me that "We have tried to get many people to see Her, those who have tried have failed to pass through the eye of Eywa and become one of us." (at this point the movie was in the background of the main experience) I had a fairly long conversation with Mo'at,and she told me that "The world you live in will soon cleanse itself, and if your people do not change their ways your kind will die".she said "of those who have entered into the eye of Eywa, they become all She is, and loose all they are". It was implied that i would die, but i did not care. I told her I am not afraid and she smiled at me like a loving mother.

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[eywa_devotee]

I felt the bond when Jake bonded to a pali, i could feel it's heartbeat,breath and it's primitive mind, it was afraid of Jake because it has never felt anything that was not yet connected to Eywa before. At this point a few people near me got startled as if they felt it too. The scenes where Jake was being taught things by Neyteri were exquisite. I felt the forest, the ground's warm moist soil, the little bugs, the air running through my hair, and noticed that I was one of them, but not Jake or Neyteri anymore, ONE OF THEM IN MY OWN RIGHT! I felt like i was a child again- i felt FREE! The people in the seats behind me started laughing, and then realized that while Neyteri gracefully landed after jumping from a tree, Jake was not so lucky, but his life was saved by a.. giant shroom.. I started laughing hysterically wondering if it was hallucinogenic or not, as did most of the people in the theater.

(at this point the movie was coming out of the screen and filing the entire theater with Pandora's world. )

Then I saw Tsu-tay, he looked at me and said: "Your kind cannot see. You will never make it up these mountains alive, Go home!" I told Tsu-tay that "I can see Eywa within you, I am ready to go with you." He called me a skown, and snickered saying "Since you you wanting to die, Come with!". I felt my ponytail bio-usb cable thingie blowing in the breeze as I climbed the mountains. The scariest part was when I jumped on the last remaining vine and climbed up the rest of the way to a mountain. I was slower than the rest of the Na'vi. BUT I MADE IT! Tsu-tay told me to "Go and choose an ikran to kill yourself with." I looked and saw there were a lot of them. Then there was one nice big purple one that nearly beheaded me with it's claw, and i wrestled with it! It was snapping at me like a rabid dog on a bad acid trip. I eventually pinned it down and connected MY OWN hair braid thingie to it.

WOAH OMG OMGOMGOMG!!!

I vaguely remember Jake bonding to the pali earlier, but that was JAKE's feelings, this was my OWN personal feelings of tshalu! I felt it's spirit enter me and my spirit enter it! It's powerful wings, and it's racing heart, and fear, Holy sh... THE FEAR! I told it "Purple dragon, you don't need to be afraid of me!" This ikran was MINE- it's one thing to imagine being able to fly on a pet dragon, it's quite another to EXPERIENCE IT!! Jake and I both flew our newly found friends and unlike Jake, I could fly with mine much better. I couldn't resist the temptation to buzz Tsu-tay for being such a skown and yelled an insult in Na'vi at him as i soared. Oh yes, i SOARED, I turned, i dove, i swooped in low and high. It was AMAZING! When i flew past the tree of souls i felt HER presence very strong and drank deeply of her divine presence. I was soaring with the rest of them,and then suddenly a BIG RED DRAGON was chasing me and i was scared, as he had one thought for us...LUNCH! I told the my dragon Nam'ru to fly as fast as she could and we barely escaped becoming it's meal. When it was over i landed on the ground and told my dragon she will be OK. Several people from the rows near us left and came back a bit later, my sitter said she felt like puking.

It was beautiful! The dragon flight was SO real. I couldn't concentrate on the movie and had to grab my glasses as a reality check, She came back during the scene when Jake was accepted into the tribe. I saw Mo'at and she smiled and said "You are one of us now, you will soon see Eywa and return to your world with her essence inside of you".

I then felt the joy of Jake and Neyteri running through this beautiful and sacred place. I felt the glowing trees brush against me and glow brighter as they did so. I felt it as Neyteri and Jake connected their ponytails to the tree and the love they had for each other. It was so beautiful. I connected my own hair braid thingie to the tree and, I saw it- first as shimmering rainbow colors than as a brilliant white light. Than I felt that i was leaving the world, but not afraid, but i didn't want to go, and I felt that i wasn't me anymore.

The theater, the movie, where did it go? Where am i, what am i? I hear her voice, she said "You are with me now, you are safe. Do not be afraid. Then the light took the form of Mo'at. and she said "We have been expecting you for some time". I am a bit confused and ask "Mo'at- is this you?" and the voice replies,"Yes she is here with me, if you desire i may choose a different avatar." I say "No, Mo'at is fine, where is this place?... Mo'at is your Avatar?!" "You are with me also, in my sphere, i am Eywa". I asked, "Can i be your Avatar?" "In time, YES. You have chosen already to become my avatar- but the time for this is not yet here".

I then was back watching the movie in time for the mercenaries to attack the Na'vi.I felt HORROR, DEEP GUT WRENCHING HORROR. I saw neyteri get angry with jake screaming "You will never be one of the people!" grace and Jake get tied up about to have their pony tails- THEIR CONNECTION TO EYWA and the Na'vi- about to be cut off. I tasted bile... Then i heard Mo'at tell me that "This isn't really happening, it's just a movie, but bear witness to the destruction your kind is capable of. As bad as this may seem, your species has inflicted far worse injury to it's own kind and your own world in the name of ignorance!"

I felt genuine pain as she said "If you are one of us, please... help us!" to Jake and Grace, then said to me "Teach your kind to know our way." in the same desperate pleading voice. The bombing started it was horrible, Na'vi men, women, and children- blown up, burned alive, crushed to death. without mercy- I almost puked. Their home destroyed, and their lives shattered ruins, all for what... som F ing rock?! The icing was when Neyteri said " Ma snatya" crying and he told her "omatacyaru, sivanu sawva skivay" and died just as Jake came. I felt bitter anger and pain as Neyteri said "GO AWAY,... GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!" I openly cried as did nearly all the people in the theater. It was awful.

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[eywa_devotee]

Then Jake, grace and them were in jail, it gave me the creeps i closed my eyes at this point and saw all kinds of beautiful patterns similar to Aztec or Mayan art with somebody singing in a beautiful language similar to Na'vi , and then i was back in the world flying the big red dragon. I heard them sing "uma ma eywa navia, tsanthasu ma ey-auwhey, tsa-saki ma tiki durahe" which I think means something similar to "Holy mother of us all, we plead with you to give us guidance and hope" and I was one with Jake on the big red dragon. I walked to the tree of souls and saw Neyteri and Mo'at and we beg the help of Eywa... What follows next is CRAZY....

Thumppp.. UOhhhmmm i felt some sort of energy ripple through me, like an electric arc up my spine. It made me jump, and again. Thumppp.. UOhhhmmm Again and again, it was nuts. I felt the energy building- it was becoming so strong! Jake was carrying grace to the tree of souls and mo'at said "she must pass through the eye of Eywa, and return, but Jake- she is very weak" All at once the move stopped- everything stopped, and Mo'at looked right at me and said 'You too must pass through the eye of Eywa, however you will not return as yourself- you will become as one with Eywa, and will return as her avatar. Do not be afraid my child" I felt the energy building throughout my body and hear Mo'at say to all of us "take her energy into you and let her fill your heart mind and soul" The energy is so intense, the beautiful colors, swirling patterns of light like a vortex! I saw myself as a Na'vi there with the rest of them trying to resurrect Grace's Avatar and at the same time reaching out to Eywa. I see a brilliant white light fireball of liquid colors and mosaic patterns, i feel the energy coursing through myself or what i think myself to be. I am surrounded by this brilliant light- it is everywhere and I feel pulled into some other dimension or into pieces and absorbed into it. It is everywhere,and everything, i hear the voices of the Na'vi and all else that has returned to her! I call out to Eywa, "Oel ngati kameie eywa!" and i feel myself DIE. I am not afraid... I am here but not here, we are here, i am Her and She is me- we are one being, different minds maybe, but now of one soul. I feel a sense of incredibly indescribable peace.I see stars, galaxies, universes spiraling from Her. Oel ngati kameie eywa, Oel ngati kameie eywa! I see you- i see you! My existence a small part of your love. At once she becomes the divine mother goddess and embraces me in her arms and says to me "Oel ngati kameie my child. You must teach your people how to see".

So long as you view yourself to be here in the present, you are not bound by the past, nor burdened by living in the future. Indeed you are here. NOW. Have no fear of this and you are then capable, in this present moment, to change the course of your ultimate destiny. You are limited only by the manifestations of your mind. Such is the wisdom of the elder ones, and the secret teachings of all ages. It is not a secret once you learn how to see it, but or those who do not see, take warning of this: CONTROL YOUR MINDS! This secret though not well known to you at this time, is your ultimate destiny. If you are bound to the past, feel powerless to change the present, and feel hopeless about the future, indeed YOU WILL manifest a future of bondage, hopelessness, and ruled by FEAR! DO NOT BE AFRAID, YOU HAVE IT IN YOUR POWER TO CHANGE IT!

Acknowledge my existence with LOVE, not FEAR. We are one being, by grace you exist within me. I see you, as you see me.

I then say with great reverence Oel ngati kameie, Eywa. The place has such great peace, i do not want to go, but knew I had no choice. I slowly return to the movie theater. It is near the end of the movie and the mech is fighting with Neyteri's palulakan, i feel it, but after what just happened it was so much different now, everything has changed! It's just a movie. The battle went on and Jake got hung by his pony tail, my GOD IT HURTS!!! Then I feel great relief as Neytiri kills him. She finds his near dead body and holds him in her arms and says "I see you." I feel a feeling of love so strong it cannot be described in words, and Eywa says "This is the love I have for you, do not forget me. I cried.aloud... In the end when Jake became his Avatar, Eywa said "Never forget me. Remember, you are now my Avatar.

AFTER THE MOVIE....

The credits roll and all i could do was sit there, but something was VERY different besides the beautiful mosaic patterns i was seeing this time! PEOPLE WERE ACTUALLY TALKING TO EACH OTHER! There were people saying things like "that was the most intense movie I ever saw in my life" "OMG that dragon chase scene was so realistic i almost puked... "you're kidding right? ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I did puke!" "this is the 8th time i saw it, and I've NEVER felt it this strong, it was so real... I know..." and so on. My sitter said that it felt like everything was REALLY HAPPENING! All could do is sit there. Walking was DEFINITELY NOT going to happen until most of the people were gone.. Surprisingly enough, I was able to walk just fine to the lobby and somebody sat next to me and asked me who I was. I said Eywa's devotee, and he laughed and said "I sat in the row behind you, and I've seen this movie more than i care to admit. NOTHING was like this time. It was AMAZING it was so REAL i felt like I was one of them! We had a rather lively conversation until my sitter was done using the bathroom. The car ride home was rather freaky, but all I had to do was close my eyes and i'm back in Pandora! It was NUTS! I felt like I was in an avatar link machine every time I closed my eyes. I saw bright colors and the light, then..thrrrrrmmmp. I'm in Pandora as a Na'vi! Needless to say i kept my eyes closed for most of the ride back. I tried to smoke a cigarette on the ride home and nearly coughed my lungs out. It was like pure poison- i felt like I was going to die. Finally we arrived back home and got out of the car. It was cold outside according to my sitter, but I felt warm like i was glowing within- it was so beautiful...

I walked inside my house and saw all the MESS, i couldn't stop thinking: MY GOD- I LET MYSELF GO THIS BAD?! I need to clean up my place! Almost immediately i hear Eywa again, she says: "Your physical body needs to be cleansed as well." oh man, OH MY GOD!!! I run to the bathroom and feel the urge to puke... i need to, No, i don't.. I... RRRRAAGHHHHHLLLLLghhh I thought I heaved my guts out! I see something indescribably horrible and nasty leave my body, but didn't physically puke... WTF was that? "that was your belief you had no right to exist at all" Then I felt it again a much smaller heave- Raghhhaff OK nothing... I think... "that was your attachments to the physical body.." Eywa dutifly says. OK now I'm getting a bit scared, how many more to go? She told me i will purge more things from my body..

O great what else could be coming up. Just then, i felt a nice deep one and RRRRAAGGGHHH, and some actual puke came out and she said "that was your attachments to the wealth of physical world" and the next one a very big heave i felt it start in the chest, OMG! RRRRRRAAAAAUUUUGGGHHHHHHGGGHHHAAAHHHH, I thought I heaved out my spleen, heart, and soul Raggghhhhhhh aggghh.... "That was the fear that kept you from accepting love into your heart"... and oh no not again.... RAAAAAUUUUGGGHHHHHHGGGH and I felt some very nasty crap come up.... "That was your fear that no one cares what you think" Ragghhhhhh, no puke this time, or ok, a little "that was your delusional fears of the future existence" OK I'm done...I think.. i wash up in the sink, "You have one more thing to purge, my child"

Oh no...Not again. RRRRHHHAAAGGHHHHHHHHHALLLLLFFFF I feel the most horrid tasting puke i ever had in my life come out! It was pure stomach acid and bile, HELP ME I'm going to DIE, EYWA HELP ME!!! I see this big red dragon-like thing with several heads exit my mouth with the puke and as it left IT screamed- "HE IS MINE, HE BELONGS TO ME!" WTF WAS THAT?! "My child, It is a being that prevented you from reaching me all your life, You are now free to choose your destiny." The rest of the night i had profound visions of the beauty of Pandora, our own world, what we could become, conversations with Eywa, and of thoughts of what we could do to change our world.

I feel her presence within me. Eywa and I are now as one. I cried tears of joy.

Avatar, Eywa, and Ayahuasca healed my soul.

Oel ngati kameie, Eywa, Oel ngati kameie..

[J Sully]

don´t be mad at me but this is way to much to read!

though nice poll!

[sullyjake1]

indeed i like this poll good idea

[Xmal'hautl]

I'm kind of . . . speechless for now.
That was very intense to read and feel, especially the part in the theater.

Thank you for this insight of yours and be encouraged to make the positive changes last a lifetime.

Eywa ngahu!

[TORUK-MAKTO]

YES! I FEEL AWAKENED and WITH HOPE!
This is exactly how I felt after seeing AVATAR the first time, seeing the power and influence of Eywa on The People. And I feel more awakened and more alive every day, realizing that this is true for us too.

[Grifff]

no offence but i think your seeing things that arent there in the movie, just imo

[Truten]

I agree with Xmal'hautl. I read through all of that and... wow.

I applaud you for managing to take so much out of the movie and what it portrayed. By the sounds of it, it was an unbelievable experience for everyone in the theatre, not just for you.

[Keiraak]

FINALLY! If half what you say is true then you are seriously ON TO SOMETHING! I applaud your insanity! I just read the whole thing and that was intensely stimulating!