Thank you Omaticaya and Sanjwale. I don't know why exactly, but I was feeling so grey, and just nothing at all sparked my interest for awhile. I'm feeling better now. Perhaps it was the first hike in some real snow all Winter. Still struggled to find that deep inner peace with Nature, but I'm feeling better at least. For now I guess I'll just keep trying to cure the symptoms, cause there's only one way to cure the disease.